How a Jewish Spirit Transported Me Into a Halfway House As a Teenager

The 1975 PVHS Orchestra
Andrea Stein second row, third from left, I'm first row, fifth from left
(Click to enlarge)

Yesterday morning in a twilight sleep God brought to my memory a disturbing time in my teenage years I wanted to share here because it involved a Jewish religious spirit.

Back in 1977 I was in my junior year of high school when our conductor Don Marino of the Palos Verdes High School orchestra arranged to bring over a violinist, Andrea Stein, into the viola section on a voluntary basis because I was the only violist that year.  Andrea took the initiative to learn the viola and we were greatly encouraged to have sectional practice for the transition.

Since I was the lead violist, I invited Andrea over to my home a few blocks away to a sectional rehearsal.  When Andrea arrived, I explained the reason I wasn't introducing her to my family in the living room watching television was because they were being mean to me. Immediately Andrea jumped on the opportunity to get out of sectional rehearsal and very quickly without a second thought overreacted to what I had said by insisting I come with her over to her home.

In 1975 I had a great debut with the PVHS orchestra and continued to win awards the following year in spite of my halfway house homeless situation.

Being emotionally vulnerable, dominated and unaware of where they were leading me, the Stein single parent family took me in for a week, providing food and shelter while teaching me about their Jewish heritage while making it seem I had run away from home. I was under the belief they were helping me so I fully cooperated unaware I was being manipulated.  I wouldn't have agreed to any of this had I known where it was leading, I just thought it was a nice break from my stressful family environment.  My father, Buddy Merrill, had recently retired from the Lawrence Welk Show in 1975 having no direction in life.  He and my mother were in a power struggle in their marriage with loud late night arguments.  That year my mother told me I had come into the world unwanted (illegitimate) under a mountain of angry emotions due to her failed marriage.

After contacting my mother to arrange for my clothing and necessary items, the Stein family must have been appalled that they didn't want me back making me out to be the problem. The attitude was likely "you can have her." All I had done was arrange for a sectional string rehearsal and mention my parents were being mean that ended up in my being severely traumatized in what followed. The Stein's contacted social services having had me sent to a half way home for shelter and a counseling evaluation where I became officially homeless!  

I stayed at the half way home in Hermosa Beach for a week back in 1977 and was prevented from attending school, leaving Andrea as the sole violist of the orchestra.  The counselors at the halfway house couldn't find any reason why I was removed from my home so they contacted my parents who came down for a mediator counseling session having agreed to pick me up.  My parents knew they had a legal obligation to care for me that I had done nothing warranting their refusal to allow me to reconcile and come home so I could attend class.

I've thought about this traumatic experience a few times over the years always with appreciation for what this kind Jewish family did for me but that I'm a little wiser in years I see things differently. The PVHS orchestra where this problem originated knew I was having family problems from my very first rehearsal at the summer musical Oklahoma in 1974. One evening my mother showed up in the orchestra pit rehearsal interrupting the conductor for me to pack up my instrument and leave with her. All I had done was talk back to her standing up for myself prior to leaving for rehearsal,  I really had done nothing wrong.  Teenagers talk back to their parents occasionally. The way my mother handled it spoke of the red headed tyrant she truly was.  In 1975 my father, Buddy Merrill of the Lawrence Welk Show was about to  retire from the program approving of my mother yanking me out of my very first orchestra rehearsal.  It was humiliating what they did to me and a glimpse of things to come.

Did removing me from my home and taking me out of school for a week help my situation?  No, it was just another way of humiliating me. Andrea would have had to endure my conducting a viola sectional so she preferred my submission to her to show how much better her family was. My privacy was completely violated by the Stein family and I was made homeless within a week sent to social services.  One day some lady just picked me up in a car and took me to a halfway house without discussion or forewarning.

When I returned to orchestra class a week later, it was clear no one missed me, no one cared I was gone and Andrea had been the only violist.. I now realize I was being usurped by a Jewish religious spirit and I'm sure Andrea wasn't alone in encouraging my early departure from the orchestra class where I had received two awards in 1975 and 1976.  Andrea had nothing to lose since she was leaving school early that year.  Sheila Rogers, who later became a talent scout and producer for David Letterman was also in that class while claiming she was Jewish as well. It is duly noted Sheila Rogers was sent on a two week trip to Israel, Greece and Spain by her caring parents, while I was completely trashed and abused by my own.  My own family looked for every opportunity to trash, hurt and humiliate me while using me as a slave to do most all the chores. 

My parents even tried to prevent me from attending the USC music camp  scholarship the orchestra provided me in 1976 because they had planned a vacation to Yosemite. (They were quite miserable to spend time with since the Hollywood television based marriage was an unhappy depraved one from the very start being born from adultery and illegitimate birth.)  I ended up staying at a musician's home starving for two days waiting to be driven up to the music camp because my parents didn't give me food money.  

Let The Jewish People Have Their Awards - They Can Have Them!
I've learned that winning awards causes people, especially Jewish musicians, to hate you and it's not worth it. That's why the last year of orchestra class I didn't bother to attend the awards dinner opting out for the jazz choir awards.  I also learned having a sports car early in life such as I had at 23 years of age causes people to hate you and it's not worth it.

Wise people never cause others to covet their talents or possessions!  I was just a kid back then and didn't fully recognize I was inadvertently causing others to covet through my musicianship and awards and later through a beautiful sports car I purchased.

“Do not commit adultery, do not murder, do not steal, do not covet,”(and if there is any other commandment) are summed up in this, “Love your neighbor as yourself."

I never want to win an award again and am glad I don't have to be concerned that will ever happen. My reward's in heaven through what Jesus did for me at the cross forgiving my sins. His gifts of grace love and patience are a real blessing, God restores!  He just wants our prayers to ask Him for such restoration.  Ask and you shall receive. Matthew 7:7-8

San Francisco City Corruption Spills Over Into Purist Tap Water In Nation

For decades, the city of San Francisco has enjoyed what's said to be the purist tap water  in the entire nation that comes from a snow pack in Yosemite known as the Hetch Hetchy reservoir. Blink! Not anymore thanks to the moronic decisions city government officials have used as an excuse to build water wells to extract polluted sewage runoff water to add to the Hetchy water mix. The allotted polluted sewage water will be allowed to enter the San Francisco tap water system at a 90/10% ratio. See Blending Contaminated Water with Hetch Hetchy Makes it Safe To Drink Experts Say - SF Examiner, April 24, 2014

To add insult to injury for the people of San Francisco, a government employee was recently allowed to get away with peeing in the reservoir multiple times without losing his job.  This ridiculous high pension PUC water manager employee, Martin Sanchez, merely got a 5 day suspension slap on the hand when he should have gotten his lame ass kicked out of a job!

"In a display of colossal disrespect for his $111,000-a-year maintenance planner position at the Public Utilities Commission, an adult man frequently urinated in a reservoir that is a source of drinking water for 2.5 million customers in the Bay Area. The Chronicle has word that the culprit named Martin Sanchez will likely be suspended without pay for five days as a result of the behavior that he was called out for in anonymous complaints" - SF Water Manager Peed In Reservoir At Work And Won't Be Fired - SF Examiner - February 9, 2015

The city government of San Francisco completely failed to run an adequate marketing campaign to get its residents to curb their water usage. Why? Likely so it could implement its preferred plan to cause major construction projects to extract water from newly built polluted groundwater wells in the city. Yet the problem still remains because this response is really just a temporary band aid since groundwater will eventually run out.

I've been noting there's little to no enforcement of water hoarders and we're already about to enter the second quarter of 2015!  For instance, the Huntington Park sprinklers run around mid day at the height of the sunshine and often saturate the ground into mud. No one cares!

California is still in the throes of an epic drought. But Bay Area water users are running taps, using hoses and watering gardens as usual, prompting warnings that The City is edging closer to mandatory water rationing in the coming months. Water use by Bay Area homes and businesses is at or above normal levels this year despite the ongoing dry spell and pleas from officials to conserve water, according to San Francisco Public Utilities Commission records. Water Use Continues As Normal Despite California Drought - SF Examiner - May 19, 2014 

It's duly noted there's no choice in the city's 311 App to address water abuse complaints.  The government's visionless and so willing to pollute the drinking water rather than implement water conservation and long term solutions.  For instance, there was a profound lack of vision to ignore repairing the Hetch Hetchy water tunnel that's on the verge of catastrophic collapse.

Mountain Tunnel, a key part of the Hetch Hetchy water system - which supplies 2.6 million Bay Area residences and businesses - is at risk of a "catastrophic collapse" and will cost more than $100 million to repair or up to $630 million to replace, according to the San Francisco Public Utilities Commission.  City officials have known for 25 years that significant work is needed on the 19-mile-long tunnel just outside Yosemite National Park in a steep, hard-to-access wilderness area. They considered making it part of the PUC's decade-old, $4.6 billion water system improvement program, which is now more than 80 percent complete. But ultimately, the 89-year-old connector was left out of the rebuild, which focused on upgrading Bay Area water facilities that could fail in an earthquake. - Hetch Hetchy Water Tunnel in Danger of 'Catastrophic Collapse' - SFGate August, 2014

Too busy focusing on bridge earthquake standards restoration, right?  Why didn't city officials consider water to be the priority? I propose the answer to that question is that today's corrupt liberal stinking governments are the main problem to what will happen in the future.  It's their lack of Godly wisdom and poor choices that will be affecting their populations for years to come. They care more about building their baseball stadiums and bullet trains then protecting drinking water systems. It's really bad news the city has chosen to use sewage run off polluted ground water to supplement its water supply rather than incorporate an adequate campaign for water conservation from its people.

There's not enough scrutiny or resistance to these corrupt politicians anymore. Why is that?  These government officials had decades to address the faulty Hetch Hetchy water tunnel system, but apparently it wasn't a priority and they are gambling with people's lives in the process while sucking up sewage water and throwing it into the purist water delivery system of the U.S.

Meanwhile, the PUC employee pees into the water system with a hand slap.  Where's the public resistance to these stinking sewage runoff loving lunatics who make these crazy decisions while failing to address major problems of our antiquated water systems? Why don't people start asking questions and get involved before it's too late?  There are idiots at the helm of our government!

Too busy watching the sports programs as danger looms! Too busy with their heads in the sand not doing their jobs while peeing in the reservoir!

Governor Jerry Brown Plans On Culling California's Population Thru Drought

In a reminder to all that liberalism is a mental disorder, Governor Jerry Brown's lack of action to prevent a catastrophic outcome due to California's drought speaks louder then words of what he and his fellow delusionals in State government are planning.  The State has just one year left of water as the state leadership does nothing significant to divert a catastrophe when they most certainly had opportunities to do so. See NASA Scientist Says California Will Run Out of Water in a Year - Needs to Ration Immediately - UK Mail - March 14, 2015

Instead of doing his Governorship duty to implement water rationing laws, one commenter on UK Mail stated it best about the tepid response of California's liberal leadership.

"These are the same people who are allowing billions of gallons of fresh water to drain out to the ocean from the Sacramento delta to save a fish. This is a man made problem. We just had four decent rain storms move thru SoCal and the idiots in charge let all I that water drain out of the LA river as well. We are horrible at conserving the rain water we get." - Comment - UK Mail

It's becoming crystal clear the state government in California has full intentions on allowing this matter to become as worse as possible to kill off its own population. In other words, the liberals in charge have no problem allowing this drought to kill off masses of people  As the commenter on UK Mail says, this is a man made disaster due to poor planning, lack of vision and proper attention to the problem.

Folsom Lake - July 20, 2011

Folsom Lake January 16, 2014

'It's abundantly obvious that almost no one actually living in California has yet come to their senses about the reality of this situation, because if they did, there would be a glut of homes for sale as everyone tried to get out ahead of the water collapse. "The last people to understand the collapse of an empire are those who live within it." writes Jeff Thomas of InternationalMan.com._ California's water supply headed for collapse in just one year; state has "no contingency plan" - NASA scientist  Natural News - March 14, 2015

When the drought kicks in, property values will plummet in California. If California's government can't provide water to its residents its economy will surely collapse and the exodus to other states will begin.

Though California's not the richest state on the planet, this comment has some truth to it.

"The Richest State on the Planet and the Politicians and the Population have still failed to sort this out over the past decade. Every thing from Almond Farming to Climate change has been blamed. A 4 year drought and continued Human over consumption and the failure to implement very costly alternatives. 365 day and this article suggests that California will be as dry as the Atacama Desert." - Commenter UK Mail

Yet another commenter hits the nail on the head:

Thank God California invested heavily in desalination plants instead of welfare for illegals, bloated retirement payouts, and 'light rail'. Oh wait... Commenter UK Mail

When Governor Brown wakes up one day to observe his state has no water, he'll likely take off in some Lear Jet along with his wealthy elitist pals to some oasis far away and let the state burn.  Never forget that liberalism is a mental disorder!

Also see:

California Has About One Year of Water Left - Will You Ration Now?  - LA Times March 15, 2015

StreetsBlog Editor Aaron Bialick Censors, Bans God Related Comments

I noted today that Aaron Bialick, editor and contributor of StreetsBlogSF.org, is accusing San Francisco Mayor Ed Lee of putting cars and parking above pedestrian and bicyclists' lives. See Mayor Lee Won't Say Saving Lives is More Important Than Car Parking - March 12, 2015.

Mr. Bialick's latest info is very interesting because just a couple weeks ago I received the following threatening email from him:

StreetsBlogSF Editor Threatened to Ban Me! 

After I received his shocking email, I checked to note Mr. Bialick did indeed censor my comment completely deleting all references to God including my being saved from eternal hell through God's grace on the day of my bike accident.  In my comment I was responding to the sudden death of a 64 year old bicyclist in order to witness how important it is to have knowledge and relationship with God prior to riding on dangerous city streets to avoid spiritual danger.

Aaron obviously didn't agree with my comment and that's his right to disagree. What wasn't okay however is how he censored my comment having actually gone in and deleted text without my permission.  Mr. Bialick then then threatened me that if I ever referred to God (aka "religion") again I'd be banned from commenting.

I took issue with Mr. Bialick's audacity to censor God out of my comment as follows:

My response email to Aaron Bialick (Click to enlarge)

I hadn't tried to comment on anything on the Bialick blog since the last communication until today when I wanted to on the Mayor Lee article.  That is when I discovered Mr. Bialick banned me from posting on the streets blog.

After I learned I was banned from commenting, another email was sent as follows:

Re:  Question for My Next Blog Article On You.

Mr. Bialick: I'd like to interview you for my next blog article related to your blocking me after you censored my comments related to sudden death and God, lied with a threat and then blocked me when I didn't write anything.

I understand your in New York editing a blog about San Francisco.  First, you're on my territory, I've been in this city now for 20 years as of this August.  I'm also a native Californian who hasn't had a car since 1986 and I've been on scooters and bicycles since that time. I've put 100,000 miles on scooters since 1992 and began bicycling in San Francisco in 2009.

As previously communicated in emails to you two weeks ago, I was in a major bike accident and nearly lost my life.  I had a near death God experience in my having nearly gone to eternal hell that day and became a reborn Christian. I was at the Broadway tunnel flat on my face as my attorney client witnessed the aftermath of the accident that clipped my tire.

I noted you didn't write about my accident of course because it wasn't in the news.  Yet it did happen and brought to light the importance of having a relationship with God for bicyclists who could lose their lives in an instant only to face eternal suffering forever without God in their lives. One minute I was riding my eBike mellow as can be on a beautiful day to Trader Joes, the next moment I woke up in a dark room at SF General with a doctor stitching up my head telling me of my multiple bone breaks. I could have just as easily awoke in eternal hell but God gave me another chance.

Since I did not continue to write about "religion" as you called it in my comments on your articles, I find it unacceptable that you still blocked me.  I therefore would like to request any comments you have related to your choice to "ban me" from your blog.  If I don't hear from you I will assume you have no interest in commenting in my blog.

You are obviously not a native Californian, you just paid your way into an education here and think you have a right to block and ban people's free speech. You violate my jurisdiction, you don't live here and this is my community. I'm on the streets of San Francisco every day here. 

Question for my article is basically "who does Aron Bialick think he is?"  Are you not more than an editor by 1) violating a community's 'jurisdiction choosing who should be heard and who should not be heard 2) violating the First Amendment of the Constitution and the religious clause (though I'm not even a religious person).

Sincerely,

Cheryl Meril

Mr. Bialick's article about Mayor Ed Lee's preference for cars and parking over pedestrian and bicyclist lives is rather hypocritical when it comes to eternal salvation he's completely opposed to.  What's wrong with letting people know the importance of having a relationship with God when they're participating in high risk activity such as bicycling on busy city streets?  Who does he think he is, this Aaron Bialick, to disregard the First Amendment and also the manner in which he completely blocked me after my email response?

The young and ignorant are following the lead of their foolish politicians by trying to strip God out of all cultural influences hoping people will forget about Him. The fact remains, there would be no First Amendment Rights in America, especially the religious clause if godless men like Aaron Bialick had it their way.  God would be completely banned from all public discussion as if he didn't exist!

A Psalm of David. The fool has said in his heart, "There is no God." They are corrupt, they have committed abominable deeds; There is no one who does good.  - Psalm 14.1

Aaron Bialick has overstepped his authority and jurisdiction using the Internet in violation of the First Amendment of the U.S. Constitution. He has self-righteously and unlawfully stripped me of my rights to attempt to save lives eternally by witnessing for Jesus Christ.

Meet Marc Barrett - Rude Robo Caller Extraordinare "Stop What You're Doing and Listen!"

Telemarketers call my phone frequently and the U.S. government's Do Not Call List makes no difference. I called AT&T that told me everyone's experiencing an increase in these annoying calls. One particular annoying robo caller keeps sending me "Stop whatever you're doing and listen!" pre-recordings from (701) 264-5002.  I never get past the introduction to know what else it says because I'm not interested.  I consider these particularly rude since they take on an authoritative tone of urgency. I have a bluetooth device I answer and get this nonsense in my ear that's become a real nuisance.

It seems a few very annoyed people have done their research to catch one of these creeps whose unlawfully spamming people's phone numbers multiple times  Meet Marc Barrett, formerly from San Diego. (FB Page at Left )

Marc claims to be a wealthy Multi Level Marketing (MLM) entrepreneur but there's no evidence whatsoever that he's wealthy, he just seems to be a good con artist who also practices the occult doing psychic readings per his Facebook page description.  This creep has been blasting my business with these rude interruptions multiple times so I looked up the number to discover the extraordinary research that was done.

People fed up with Marc Barrett's unlawful robo calls did a little research tracking the number (701) 264-5002 as I did.

Click to enlarge - posted on this call center website

and this

Click to enlarge - posted from call center website

I can't imagine the kind of man who would continue to send these robo calls week after week but I thought Marc earned a place on my blog for refusing to provide an opt-out for the calls and to stop while he's ahead.

Marc practices the occult and this was his latest post within the past our of my blog post.  

Greedy occultist Marc Barrett and his latest Facebook sales promotion today

Apparently money couldn't buy Marc Barrett any anti-aging solutions.  

• President & Founder 

Barrett Banking Systems, Inc.  Denver, CO & Miami, FL

Founded a financial services company specializing in Electronic and Virtual payment processing systems and merchant account sales for Visa and MasterCard accounts nationwide with 111 sales representatives in multiple states. 

• Managing Member & Co-Founder

Paragon Technology Partners, LLC

Research and analysis of investment opportunities with startup companies seeking venture capital, seed round financing, or angel investors

• Owner

Resource Marketing Group

Sales, Management, and Business development for a company marketing consumer and technology products in the US and 18 international markets.

• President & Founder

Landmark Financial San Diego, CA & Denver, CO

Founder of multiple financial and real estate related companies: Landmark Equity Corp., Landmark Capital Corporation, Consolidated Management Systems, Landmark Insurance Services, Landmark Energy Systems, and Barrett Financial.

Residential real estate sales, income property management,  real estate syndication, capital raising for private real estate placements and the design and structuring of securities work for private offerings (thirteen partnerships). Analysis and acquisition of commercial properties, financial restructuring and loan brokerage,  marketing and resale of projects.

People full of greed will not enter heaven (Ephesians 5:5)

BEWARE: LinkedIn Member Martin Bean of Paralegal Group Services in San Diego

Yesterday I opened a LinkedIn message to find a recently convicted felon named Martin Bean, 63, from the creep capitol of the U.S., San Diego, who may still be in prison since a two year sentence back in September of 2013.

Bean's probing women like myself on LinkedIn for our free advice and contacting as if he's some successful business man.  He claimed I joined his group but I'm not a paralegal in the field since 2010 and he's not in my network.  In short, he's asking for my free advice and for permission to contact me again.

When I noted his arrogant attitude to my question about compensation and clear lying, I looked up his background to discover the following:

"This defendant blithely put the public's health at risk so he could line his own pockets," said Derek Benner, special agent in charge for HSI San Diego. "This sentence should serve as reminder about the potential consequences facing those who deal in imposter drugs with no regard for the dangers they pose to patients and consumers. HSI will continue to work with its law enforcement partners here and abroad to prevent the distribution of counterfeit and misbranded pharmaceuticals."  Florida man sentenced for operating online San Diego-based pharmacy that sold unapproved, misbranded oncology drugs  - U.S. Customes and Immigrantion Enforcement - 9/12/2013

FBI San Diego public notice on recently convicted felon Martin Bean

United States Attorney Laura E. Duffy announced today that Martin Paul Bean, III, of Boca Raton, Florida, was sentenced by the Honorable William Q. Hayes to serve 24 months in custody for his role in a scheme to sell unapproved foreign oncology drugs to doctors in the United States. Bean had pled guilty to conspiracy to commit a number of federal offenses, including wire fraud, mail fraud, selling unapproved drugs, selling misbranded drugs, and importing merchandise contrary to law. Bean was further ordered to forfeit the Jaguar XJ he purchased with the proceeds of the scheme and to pay restitution of $19,270 to one of the victims of his scheme. 

In pleading guilty, Bean admitted that between February 24, 2005 and October 30, 2011, he operated a business (GlobalRx Store) from his residence in Florida and unlawfully sold over $7 million of prescription oncology drugs to doctors throughout the United States. Bean ordered unapproved drugs from foreign sources, including sources in Turkey, India, and Pakistan, and sold them to doctors within the United States at substantially discounted prices. Among the misbranded and unapproved drugs sold by Bean were versions of drugs marketed in the United States as Gemzar7, Taxotere7, Eloxatin7, Zometa7, and Kytril7. - FBI 9/12/2013

I'm not at all for recent felons being allowed back into our society with such great ease as if they're successful businessmen.  They have to pay their dues to prove they are worthy of owning a business after what they did.  Therefore when one of these unrepentant arrogant slime balls contacts me for my free advice and he has the audacity to be trying to get into the legal field, I'll expose his lazy fat behind.  No more Jaguars for these bad men!

This is the new business model a wanna be successful businessman's attempting to push on the Linkedin network wanting their free advice to implement:

Paralegal Group Services (PGS)San Diego, California
PGS has developed many unique results driven support programs for federal, state, and county inmates, such as power-of-attorney services, notary public services, writs and letter writing services. Highlights include a "Character & Remorse Document for the Sentencing Judge" and a "Nu-Jail Facility Kit" for newly incarcerated individuals and their families. 

PGS's expertise also extends to those seeking to learn about their U.S.immigration status, as well as those who are just starting the process of immigration visa and naturalization forms.
Above all, we seek to advance reputational protection through a measured series of steps to identify, reduce and manage risk profiles and enhance our customers new way of life's continuity planning and preparedness.  

Working across these two linked areas, PGS paralegals offer specialist advice focusing on the protection of people, critical personal directions, and reputation.
If you would like to collaborate on these services, email me at *********. PGS's website is under construction and is due to open for business in San Diego on April.1, 2015.

No Martin, you may not contact me again.

This Generation's So Called Music Is The Worst Ever In Human History!

I've been around a while now and have heard a lot of music in my life.  I feel the bands of today have pushed the envelope to the max of wanting to mirror the sounds of howling demons and fallen souls of eternal hell.  They certainly can't really get any worse than what I heard at my Active Sports Club gym this evening.

I mentioned the issue a couple weeks ago in their gym's survey and they responded they'd try to keep the volume down. Tonight it was full blown demons screaming at the top of their lungs coming over the speakers as I tried to burn some calories on their machines.

Back in the early 1980's I know rock singers like Billy Idol must have been horrific to listen to for the older folks but at least he had some kind of singing voice, musicality and the music was well produced. Today many of these horrendously talentless pieces of garbage bands sound as if they're playing from eternal hell itself.  What kind of arrogance allows people to play this music in a gym as if it's normal every day routine?  The gym manager said this music comes from a radio station yet there are no disc jockey's to present the names of these horrific bands that seem to play collectively for one specific purpose - to worship Satan and spread his ugly vile stench to human ears.

My second complaint letter to the Active Sports Club's gym today:

Per our recent communications, just a note the music was exceptionally crazy tonight, those were the kind of sounds that come from eternal hell no good man or woman should be forced to listen to.  I've been through the rock and roll era and I've heard a lot of music in my life, but that music is Satanic and beyond reasonable to play at the Fairmont Hotel that often has guests who use the gym of an elderly age. 

Once again, I'm asking Active Clubs to adjust the volume to low if it wants to play that music so that I'm not forced to endure what is an unreasonable virtual reality tour of eternal hell. I asked Ellie to let me know what station it is and she claimed she had no access to the unit. I want to know what station plays that kind of filth so I can contact Paul Williams, the President of ASCAP.  I'm going to ask that you give control to those at the front desk to turn down the music at the request of your members. 

This so called music isn't suitable for most of the members of your gym, this I assure it and if you'd like to open the kind of gym that attracts that kind of grunge 20 year old music you should move to the South of Market out of the heart of the Nob Hill community that's significantly more conservative then the other parts of San Francisco. 

Thank you for your attention to this matter once again.

Can you imagine when some elderly gentlemen who stays at the Fairmont Hotel wanting to catch a little exercise has to be put through something like that?  I mean, this is for real, the music was so depraved those were the sounds of eternal suffering and hell.  They can't make it much worse than that.

I don't know where the baby boom generation went wrong raising the current generation playing this stinkin garbage but they've gone way too far.  Their lives can be better put to use fighting ISIS.

These talentless stinking garbage bands that put out this trash need to be put out of their misery of musical failure!   I hereby accept any job opening of intercessory prayer to have this music in America wiped off the face of the earth never ever to be heard again!  It's that bad.  God answers my prayers and if this is His will and I pray it He will answer my prayer.

This has gotten to the point of no return for the little bastards who put this stinking garbage into the hemisphere and it stinks in God's nostrils!  Hell is their destination, their choice of eternal torment and they can take their stinking guitars, drummers and trashy singing with them to be locked away with Satan forever never to be heard from again!

Was I A Vindictive Person Before Jesus Saved Me? Does a Bear Do That In The Woods?

I don't understand what all the big deal is about men researching me on the Internet who don't even know me who seem to want to take issue with my possibly being a vindictive person. I get emails from their assessment of my situation after what they read.  Just as the author of the blog or comments, they too have never met me.

For the record, I want to answer questions of who might come to this blog after reading complete strangers' writings. I've never denied I was ever a vindictive woman.  I certainly was!

I've done all kinds of vindictive and self destructive things throughout my life and have had an unruly poisonous tongue at times because I was a hell bound rebellious person.  By nature I wasn't vindictive but I won't go into reasons why I became that way because they're only excuses for my not turning to God and His Word. When it comes to God and His Word he doesn't argue with us or accept any excuses because Jesus did it all for us at the cross suffering for our sins. We have God's Word as a blueprint for how to live our lives on earth prior to eternity.

I Was Confused About Myself Due To Cultural Influences And A Dysfunctional Family

For many years I had falsely believed myself to be a lesbian that caused men to want to burn me in corporate America.  Men high up on the corporate ladder wanted me to play the woman scorned role and continually placed me in  torment,  They provoked me through their own sin and, because I wasn't rooted in God's Word, namely the wisdom of Solomon's proverbs at the time, I had no foundation on how to react and behave.  I just responded whichever way the wind blew my fancy!  I shouldn't have reacted especially since putting things in writing is highly problematic when people can interpret things however they so please.  I never stalked anyone physically, I just wrote letters. I wouldn't follow anyone around or stare at them and that is the lie that was often litigated against me I took issue with.

So yes I was a vindictive person with a wicked out-of-control heart especially after I read the lies written about me on the Internet because I took myself too seriously. I was especially self righteous believing I was right and others wrong. I had remnants of witchcraft running through my veins from how I was raised as a child.  Jesus is in my life now and I know the Holy Spirit's working on ridding me of this and other issues forever. In fact, I know I'm being cleansed of this sin that will be completely removed from His memory when His work's been completed in my life.

Sandi Smith calls social media "Satan's Playground" where
drama runs rampant to distract us from God. Sandi's began studying the Bible back in 1978 whose been teaching on social media the past 7 years.

Jesus took a bucket of water and put out the flames.  The flames are occasionally triggered by comments I read on the Internet and, as Sandi Smith recently did, I need to get off Satan's playground on social media and stop spending my time there.  Sandi Smith is a true Christian who has shared a

lot about her walk with Jesus and taught the past seven years who I began listening to in 2012. Sandi's now moving on because of all the drama that happens on social media that's Satan's device to distract.

Whatever's been written about me way back in 2007 by complete strangers who were never in my personal life, were men who wanted to burn me for my view of former San Francisco Chronicle Sex Sado/Masochist Sex writer Violet Blue for my combative spirit towards their attempt to dominate me.   I responded with two lawsuits, one I won by default, another I lost because I didn't know how to proceed after a motion to quash revealed another was involved through identity theft.

Yes I Was A Vindictive Person!

It's true I was vindictive and wanted revenge at times in my life that Satan had influenced my mind and thoughts  It's true I carried it too far with a lawsuit in 2009 and gave these strangers far too much attention of my time. It's true I made some presumptions that turned out to be false, such as the identity of the man who sent me an email who was committing unlawful identity theft of another. But I maintain the two men involved were malicious in their activities, provocative, harassing and perverted that there was a psy-op being used to entrap me for a specific purpose.  These weren't innocent men and I did not bear false witness because it was a manipulative scripted psy-op designed to cover-up for themselves.  I gave this man two opportunities to contact me after two warning letters of the lawsuit. I offered him $1,000 to take down a blog he later proved he had influence over in having it taken down once. He was involved and had a long history of his own vindictive activities and tricks.

Yes Jesus Saved Me After a Bike Accident In Late 2012

Jesus saved me from the devil's tricks and I'm a saved Christian now.  I forgive my enemies, pray for them and move on in life.  I don't Google myself nor care what anyone writes about me on the Internet anymore.  I'm no longer a singer and the musical notation I read is in God's Word.

While Sandi Smith began studying the Bible in 1978, 

I was singing this as my first solo with the PVHS Jazz Choir

Yes I Was A Fool!

Yes I was a sinner, yes I harbored anger and ill will for my enemies. Yes I was vindictive filing lawsuits out of my emotionally unhealthy condition, yes I lacked patience with the situation, yes I made bad decisions, yes I didn't seek God, yes I let the devil have a foothold in my life and heart. Yes I was a fool to fall into Satan's trap.  Fools rush in, do they not?

Yes God Is Faithful and Patient With Me!

God is faithful and patient with me that my life's been redeemed and is healing. I have a relationship with Jesus now.  I look back and see it was all my own fault, I've always caused my own problems! It doesn't matter what anyone writes if you're life's right with Jesus. Jesus is there to listen to my prayers 24/7 and answers them because I repented of my sins and turned to Him.  I yielded and surrendered my failed life to God for Him to take over.  My wicked heart has been replaced with the Holy Spirit that directs my life through God's Word.  I don't follow my foolish deceptive heart anymore that God's Word said is flawed and unreliable.

I take small steps each day of following God in obedience reading his Word that I love, praying to Him, tithing and striving to be of good service and helpful to others.  I memorize Scriptures, meditate on them and listen to the Word being taught by Dr. Charles Stanley and Dr. David Jeremiah who send me their teachings each month as well.

I Am No Longer On A Broad Path In Life

I'm on a narrow path and I pray for all of my enemies and forgive all who have hurt or offended me whether intentional or not.  I noted big problems happen from our imaginations and delusions.  God's Word is rooted in truth.

I Forgive and Pray For My Enemies!

So I hope this answers the burning questions about me, yes I was a vindictive person to a certain degree who had a problem with anger. No one's life was in danger but I was angry about what was happening to me back then I felt was unfair.  I felt cheated in life and I began to retaliate through law civilly. Because of my metaphoric blog about one of the strangers, it was misinterpreted and used against me in court often out of context.  So if anyone wants to think of me that way, you're right I was vindictive.  Just know I now make it a priority to forgive anyone who may or may not have wronged me.  Forgiveness is one of the necessary keys to a Christian's life. God has been good to me throughout my life, I caused my own problems out of ignorance of His Word.

I Accept All Promises God Offers In His Word

I do accept all God's eternal gifts and promises and redeem my life through Jesus.  I have full understanding of who and what Satan is and I'm no longer fooled by his counterfeit activities.

I won't be answering any further questions, this is an official closure on the lawsuits of 2009-10.

God Surprised Me With Perfect Timing of Crescent Moon, Venus & Mars Trio!

If you didn't see this tonight, you can still catch it tomorrow if the sky's clear.  I happened out to the gym tonight at the perfect time and recorded my surprise on this short video. What a great cosmic birthday gift from God! I turn 55 years of age on Sunday.

Venus, Mars and a large Crescent Moon, February 20, 2015

It was a gorgeous trio in the sky  of planet formations I've never seen before that were truly beautiful. When I got home I noted others were trending their photos on Facebook of some gorgeous shots.

SNL Star's New Music Video Proclaims There's a Muslim Living in the Whitehouse

"Former Saturday Night Live star Victoria Jackson, a few years back, noted Barack Obama’s socialistic agenda and wrote and sang a ditty called 'There’s a Communist in the White House'  It was viewed by hundreds of thousands. Now she’s released a new song that’s similar, and it’s going to send the monitors of politically incorrect speech into a frenzy. It’s called 'There’s a Muslim living in the White House.”' SNL Star's Newest Song - WND.com